Dear Universe

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Hello Friends, Family,

I live with mental health issues. I have a personality disorder, I’m Bipolar 2, I have recovered from addiction, and I have tremendous anxiety. I’ve also dealt with loss via two miscarriages in the last few years that really took a toll on my sanity. Following each loss, I was thrown into deep depressions that ended with hospitalizations. I was suicidal and the depression was unwavering. I underwent ECT. (Yes, they still do that.) Then, when things were darkest, I lost my mind and tried to kill myself by breaking my neck. I succeeded in breaking my neck and back, but I survived. This past year I have been recovering and trying to find my path. I am in a great state of mind, I am back at Columbia studying premed so I can go to nursing school, and I’m writing a blog about all of my experiences. The blog is raw, it is dark, and it is intense at times. But I’d like to share it with you all because I believe that mental health is something we should discuss, and if people like me cannot use our voices, then no one will. I am nervous about sharing this because the stigma against mental health in our society is so great. But I also have faith in all of you. You don’t have to read my blog, but if you spend one moment understanding what mental health is and can do to people, that those who suffer are your friends and family, that there is no shame in suffering from a mental disorder, then I’ve done what I wanted to do. Thank you in advance for being the kind, intelligent, understanding people that you are. Don’t be afraid to share your story.

Excessively, Me

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